Light poles

Here's a little peak into how my mind works.

11.08.10

He likes to leave the house around 6:15 AM. I go to sleep around 3AM so it hurts when he shakes me awake a quick 3 hours after I nurse my daughter and fall asleep. This particular morning, however, was GREAT to me! It was cool outside and no one was going to see me so I slipped on a comfortable pair of workout pants and a warm hoodie. The babies weren't crying. I was not nearly as tired as I should have been. I was excited for the new day and surprised about it.

T h e n i t h a p p e n e d .

We drove past the student parking lot and that all too familiar feeling where my heart sinks, my stomach wrenches and my head aches began. I thought (for some reason inexplicable to any logic whatsoever) the light poles might fall on students and/or their cars when they arrived at school. I tried to continue our conversation and focus but my mind had already pulled away from me. I was so annoyed. Why would I think that? Where did it even come from? So I did the only thing I know to do...

I p r a y e d .